FAN

1

Why do you always have to misinterpret people ?

Make a mockery of the poor, distressed souls..

Who weave dreams around you to seek their lives' oxygen ?

Do you consider yourself rich enough to own a common man's dreams ?

Having intoxicated the world with your charm now..

Do you mean.. people won't get ecstatic..mad to catch a glimpse of you ?

A thousand crores of people crowd around you today..

Its been long since you've flown away to the stars' kingdom..

If some imbecile lunatic on earth wishes to burn himself with the tranquil light left by you.. now on the verge of extinction..

Do you have any responsibility to stop him ?

2

Holding my TV channel's microphone in hand..

I'd been running around you since centuries hoping for an interview..

The messenger of death weighed down by his camera had been continuously pressing me to make haste..

I've watched heroes professing their undying love into your ears.. spell-bound

Drinking your nectar and rubbing your pollen grains into their bodies like skilled artisans

When your speeches in meetings and discussion forums had been broken by loud applauses..

I've watched with pride..

When the media have been lavish in their praises for you

Did I feel a twinge of envy ?

3

So many times I'd played into the lush vegetation of your tresses, emulating the air..

Have held and nurtured the aroma of your body, inebriated..for ages..

The voice of the cuckoo had mesmerized my senses even in hot summer afternoons..

How would you feel it ?

I'd whispered so many sweet-nothings into your ear..

Either you couldn't or you didn't want to hear..

Your thoughts made me sketch ballads on pillows and blankets..

I was never a poet..

The day I etched your name on my arm..

My face shining with the pride of my valiance..

I'd failed to notice when my blood had mixed with my sweat..

In a single breath, I had swam across the river currents

And stolen 108 blue lotuses for your worship.

The security guards of your mansion would not let me in..

4

Perhaps you feared that I'd bare my wounded heart..

And embarrass you before all

Why couldn't you understand..

My eyes can see only your reflection..

My lips can feel only your imaginary kisses..

My brain, my nerve-endings has only your hymns scripted in them since centuries..

Since when my existence has lost itself into yours..

I don't remember..

Was it possible for me to hurt you ever that I'd now ?

5

Even to this day you've remained the same, unaffected, cruel..

Flowing towards your destination in your own rhythm..

Trampling many pebbles of love disdainfully with your feet

Inundating lives with your deluge..

While keeping the thirsty dying for a drop of water..

Playing games according to your whims and fancies..

6

Neither then nor now

Shall I ever want to bring you back to the earth..

Fired by the obstinacy, grimness and pride of your success..

I pray you rule the kingdom of stars for ages..

Love has lots of expectations from a woman in flesh and blood..

Why would you look back at me ?

Why love me ?

I'm not a skilled lover like you've always demanded..

Like your countless followers loving you madly.. unconditionally..

I'm just a mere 'fan' and nothing more..

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